Fool's Gold.

I miss this.
Talking about utter nonsense and a life with Jesus.
(Two separate catergories)
I should be studying.
I have a 1,800 word assessment due by 5pm tomorrow. It's currently 9:15pm.
You may or may not have noticed, but I haven't submitted a blog in a few months. I've felt a little discouraged in my walk with Jesus. I've made idols. Messed up. Become slave to the toys and materialistic jargon of the world. All the while I've been a good little church boy. Where did my passion escape to? I ask myself at various stages of life, every now and then, "I am I sure I have a real, rock-solid relationship with Jesus?" I am completely aware of what's going on, yet I do nothing about it. It's like my spirit is the audience in the downfall of my faith. Sounds like strong words doesn't it? They are. Nevertheless, it is true. I've been living for the desires of my flesh. Where am I with Jesus? I don't know. I am lost on an island of confusion and regret. Help me, Jesus. I will conquer.
I feel like I'm adjourning to the wide path, or, I've already stepped on it.
I know what happened too. I was worried about how a person, whom I hardly know, thought about me and my walk with Jesus. I was trying to make them impressed, make them like what they saw. From there my motives changed. My identity was in who they called me. I still don't know what they think. I am glad.
I didn't ask them about it. How cool and Christianly does that sound? Not very. Now, I'm stuck in this arena of dismay, where there is a battle between me and my ego.
I thought I had a REAL relationship with Christ? I did. I do still.
I'm stuck in this arena of laziness and self deceitment. Procrastination. Procrastinating my own relationship with God? I never used to be like this. Like I said in my testimony. I reached out to God with EV-ERY-THING. Not just a tiny portion of my heart, but with all of it. I was in need. Am I not anymore? Am I over God? Over meaning? Over purpose? Have I found my foundation, my identity in what the world calls me? I used to be so much smarter! I knew abundantly more about scripture when I was younger. It brings me to tears knowing that I've forgotten (more likely confused) some of the key aspects of God's character.
I'm now a slave. To the internet. To technology, period. If it comes to it, I will have to be rid of my laptop.
I've heard it said, "The change starts now." I've seen people, some of my own brothers and sisters in Christ become annoyed, and even frustrated at that line. "The change has already started!" They tell themselves bluntly, over and over. They are confused. If only the understood.
That should be a line that we should say and commit to more often. Are we satisfied with who we are? More importantly, are we pleasing God? Are we settling for who we are now? Building foundation and fort in a place that was meant for temporary accommodation?
Go further, I ask. No, I PLEAD. Go further, don't listen to that voice in your head telling you you're pathetic and you should stop. I listened. That was a bad choice. People say to people like me, "walk the talk", I say, "don't do what I did." It will take time.
I sometimes settle for okay. It disappoints me that I do. I weep at my own actions to the moon, then when the sun rises, I'm exactly the person I hate.
I could sound that I'm being hard on myself. But frankly, I'm just not satisfied. Brothers and sisters in Christ, journey further, jump higher, run faster.
I understand now, "The change starts here", it does. For me. And for you? I don't know. It all starts with prayer. But I can't do this on my own.
Challenge your reasoning.
Talk about what nobody else wants to talk about. Be the ice-breaker.
There is so much on my mind right now.
 If you're reading this, I probably love you. Even if I hardly know you. I do. I can't help it, sorry.
 I just had a fantastic talk with my family. Unless, you're unaware, I do not get along well with them. It wasn't the "Oh, I love you forever" type of talk, but the "Wake up, and get your butt into gear" type.
It was very enlightening. I am lazy. I don't do much around the house.
I hate being lazy. It hurts to see myself being lazy.
The change starts here. Through the strength and determination that Christ gives me. Not myself.

I must cry my heart out, seek forgiveness, desire change and transformation, long for God's calling.

"Like the prospector finding fulfillment in fool's gold, the sinner finds fulfillment in the desires of their flesh."

God bless you. I pray you understand me, and I pray you can overcome the barriers stopping you from connecting with Christ.

If you have anything that you'd like to say; critique, advice, thanks whatever.
Please comment.

"When all I want, meets all I need."

"People want the truth, but never want the scars." After the Devil Beats his Wife - Emery

"When the world is falling down from under me, I'll be found in You, still standing." Shadowfeet - Brooke Fraser

"Don't excuse yourself from life today on the pretense of your past." Existence - August Burns Red

"You've opened my eyes, so I can see You're all around me." Light Up the Sky - The Afters

"Oh, God be my everything, be my delight. Be, Jesus my glory, my soul satisfied" Be Thou My Vision - Ascend the Hill

"Everyone here can be sure of one thing, we're all in need." Hearts Open - Ivoryline

"The final time I close eyes, I will open them in paradise." Made From Dust - Ivoryline

"You are worth more than riches or gold to me." To the Service - I Am Terrified

"God above kings and queens, every idol will bend and break." Rise - Hillsong

"Doubt your doubts, and believe your beliefs." Ode To Chin - Switchfoot

Post any more in the comments :)

All three subscribers I have.

100 + 100 = 100...?

Jesus was 100% God and 100% man.
That hurts.
How can that be possible?
You can't be 200% anything.
Well... it hurts to think about this apparent "contradiction" doesn't it?
But the good news is I know how to solve it!
The answer is... Just don't think about it!
As humans, we are limited in knowledge, so trying to wrap our head around this is pain.
Same thing with the Trinity too.
Here's a Bible verse from Phillippians 2:5-8

"In your relationships with one another, have the same mindset as Christ Jesus:
Who, being in very nature God, 
did not consider equality with God something to be used to his own advantage;
rather, he made himself nothing 
by taking the very nature of a servant, 
being made in human likeness.
And being found in appearance as a man, 
he humbled himself 
by becoming obedient to death - even death on a cross." 


Anyway... the point I'm trying to make is that lots of Christians usually forget about the 100% man part.
Jesus was like us.
He had a sense of humour.
He sneezed (just imagine that)
He went through everything we did.
Yet He was perfect.

Watch this if you can be bothered!

Blessings-a-many.

We meet again... for the last time.

Not really the last time...

Just getting your attention is all.

Ramble-fest?

Of course....

You know me too well ;)

Well, not really.

The only thing you should be worried about now is...

So I left my computer for 20 minutes and I forgot what I was gonna say.

I'm applying for a job today.

Mum will throw a ferret at me if I don't get one eventually.

Something I enjoy is thinking about God.

I don't wanna sound super spiritual about it either.

I am only a leaf in the wind.

And God caught me.

Blessings-a-many! :3

Serving Jesus ALL my life?

Retirement.
I'm not expecting to do it anytime soon.
I'm not expecting to do it my whole life.
I don't even know if I'll reach the age to retire before Jesus comes again.
What I'm getting at is, Jesus didn't call us to serve Him for half our lives.
When we give our lives to Jesus, are we really giving our whole life to Jesus?
Or only half?
It's a popular idea that when it seems we've had our fair share of what God has in store for us, we retire, lay back & relax.

I hope this video from Mark Driscoll can elaborate my point.

Blessings-a-many.

Tough topic... tough crowd.

Well, hi there!

You might be either be here because I told you to read it, you are bored and have nothing else to do, or you might feel sorry for me and are reading this out of sympathy :P

Joking. But whoever you are, I feel obliged to elaborate about the following:

Why I have never, and never will drink.

"WOAH!" You scream, "IS HE BEING SERIOUS?"

Yes, I am.

I will provide you 3 reasons for why this choice has come to be.

First off,

Drinking is not a sin, nowhere in the Bible does it claim drinking of alcohol is a sin.
For those who say, "Jesus didn't turn water into wine! He turned it into grape juice."
Go sit in the corner and think about that.
What the Bible ACTUALLY says about the consuming of alcohol is,
Ephesians 5:17 "Do not get drunk on wine, which leads to debauchery. Instead, be filled with the Spirit."
The Bible certainly does not oppose drinking, as some uninformed Christians say.

Reason 1:
My family.
I have a grandparent who is well known in the family for getting drunk, even on family get-togethers.
This has caused many dramas and conflict between their children, one child being my parent.
Because of my grandparent's addiction, they are frowned upon in the family.
Because of this addiction it has lead to Parkinsons disease and my grandparent shakes like a leaf.
It hurts to see such family conflict literally every time my parent and grandparent see each other.
This is one reason why I don't drink alcohol.

You may be asking yourself, "Why be so against it, even having not one drink on a rare occasion?
Well, hopefully I can clarify that.

Reason 2:
Addiction.
I have seen way too many people leave the church and leave Christ all together because of alcohol.
It cuts me deeply to see my old best friends from my youth group partying and getting drunk on a Friday night, remembering that they used to be so committed to Christ.
I have heard too many stories that addiction comes from the first drink, even though they might not want it to. They can't help it.
These days, turning 18 means two things, getting your P's, and going out to pubs and bars.
Too many people have I seen get distracted from Jesus. All from that one drink.

Are you skeptical of my reasoning? Please do be.
Think for yourself. Don't you dare give in to peer pressuring. (contradictory statement?)
Think of the consequences of everything you do.
Main word for this post is think.

Reason 3:
Pre-suppositions.

pre·sup·pose [pree-suh-pohz] verb (used with object), -posed, -pos·ing.

1.  to suppose or assume beforehand; take for granted in advance.

If you saw a man walking down the street with a long black trenchcoat, emo fringe, 30 facial piercings, skinny frame, pale skin, tons of chains, and all black clothing, what would your instant judgement about that man be?
Emo?
As much as I disagree with pre-suppositions, it's a hard thing to avoid.
So imagine if you saw somebody's picture on Facebook with that person holding a beer bottle in their hand, what would you think?

"Oh wow, looks like that person had a 'good night' last night."

No.

"Oh wow, I wouldn't expect them to get drunk."

That might not be the first thing you think, but it would come to mind.

If I'm going to be working for Christ's Kingdom and for His church, I can't let these pre-suppositions occur.
I hate 'cred'. It ruins everything, as soon as you hear about somebody you wouldn't expect to get drunk do so. It's a hard thing for their status not to be lowered. In your mind anyway.
So if I'm at a party, I make sure no one will attempt to take a photo of me.
People are very pre-suppositional.
Even me. I'm not perfect.

I hope what I've said can help you understand.

Cheers for reading.

Blessings-a-many.

Orange sort of rhymes with lozenge. SCIENTIFIC BREAKTHROUGH.

SOME call me Billy.
SOME MORE call me Tom.
BUT NOBODY calls me Joseph.
For instance... take a chicken, put it in the blender and what do you have?
Little baby mangoes :3 Naaawwww.
HELP.
I need a medic!
I need a doctor, doctor. A pancake is what I need. Hey, hey.

Thinking hurts, people some say. Believe but I think don't that's true.
I met a bloke from Japan and we exchanged gifts. I gave him a soccer.
Curry. Is. On. My. Home. Work.
One day, that'll be the day, when that day will be a day away.
OUCH. Sore nostrils. I won't be able to eat my fried rice.
Sometimes, I dream about cheesesticks.

Are this that right type of way them to can be talking much?
I don't remember.
Don't ask me, melon man.
You're a melon instead of a human being. Your birth certificate lies.
Ya is not a choo choo train!
This  is climax-ing.
Goo'bah!
You just tuned in to a special episode of face punch, where we punch you in the nostrils!!! HA HA.

Ooooooh I get it now :3
Trevor is apparently my name... filthy pixies.
I pass on my sincere condolences from my fist towards your butter chicken. BAM.

I feel sorry for every human being who transformed into a melon whilst attempting to read this.
If you didn't...
You're a mushroom.
NOM.
Actually I hate mushrooms D:
Yuck.

Goo'bye until the near distant future my friend.

Blessings-a-many, for I am not a robot.